LOVE, Kloudiia

The pangs of regret hit you so sharply you feel as if you’re being cut into shreds, your body torn into pieces and falling flatly on the ground, getting stepped on by the many pairs of brisk feet rustling over, digging into your pain each step they take as if telling you that you deserve this punishment. You can feel the pain in your heart, and not one second passes without you berating yourself “How can I be so careless? How could I have misplaced it?”

I’m sure sometime in your life, you would have lost something that is precious to you. And because it is precious, the angrier you are on yourself for having let that happen.

But, it has happened. You have lost that thing – your wedding band, the antique coins your mum gave you, that handmade card from your best friend in primary school, or your mobile which contains so much treasure inside.

You wish that it will reappear again. You’re willing to give a reward to the Samaritan who’ll find it and bring it back to you. But, what if you lost that thing at the very place where it’s meant to store it properly? What if you lost it at home? Then, you can only count on your luck and maybe, some great memory recall, to trace back when the last time you’ve seen or used that item was.

The process can be a torture, if you’ve been through it. I have, and more than once. Gosh! What a misery I was!

But, when our lucky stars really shine on us just for that one out of a hundredth time, we feel like we’re the most fortunate person on Earth. Yes, when we found what we lost, heaven is a place on earth.

And don’t we all know that such lessons not only apply to tangible stuff, but to other precious and valuable things like love, trust, friendship, relationships, integrity and honesty? We might have lost them somehow, due to changes in circustances or ourselves or others, and we may not have the fortune to get it back. Even if we got it back, the core of it might have altered and no longer the same as before.

What can we learn from all these?

Not only to treasure what we have at present – people and things that are important – but also to remember to protect them and keep them safe.

For those pangs of guilt and regret of losing something that is important may just follow us for a long time to come, when we can’t find it back.